Title: Explorer

Gender: Female

Age: 49

Sun Sign: Aries

Chinese Sign: Earth Boar

Location: Hebden Bridge, England

It was funny trying to create a nickname for this profile: I ended up using my name 'Tam'; compassion in Tibetan, 'Metta'; Loving Kindness to which I aspire, and 'Tao' because I'm into the Chinese Internal Martial Arts.  It all squashed together to make 'tamettao' ketchup, which is so often the squishy underlying reality to noble intent!

The people I've browsed on this site will know that anything i say about about my history, attitudes and preferences is 'Not-Self'.  Im very interested in 'Self'; that all connecting, peaceful, blissful, wise emptiness, but I'll share some 'Not-Self' as stories can be fun:

After leaving university i went walkabout in India for a year and a half in the early 1980's, mainly on rural development projects.  However, we dropped into Sri Aurobindo's ashram in Pondicherry  and i had an experience there that blew my Newtonion physics modernist world view right open - I opened up to the possibility that Spirit existed, that there were invisible forces science couldn't measure yet, and that life was far more miraculous and interesting than schooling in Europe had prepared me for!  It was quite cool discovering that at 21.

Progress since then has been varied - very often I seem to get sucked into side eddies of the stream and go round and round getting nowhere fast.

I am interested in meditation, Buddhism, Taoism, Chinese IMA, Yoga as a result, 'though - and have had experiences of some very beautiful internal states on silent retreats.

I'm grateful to Ken Wilber and the Spiral Dynamics model for providing a framework to understand both where i came from and the path I'd like to tread.

Currently I'm at a crossroads in my life; my filming work of 22 years has come to an end.  This was both a relief and scared me s***less with the financial implications.  I needed to stop my freefall into stress and sleeplessness and loss of appetite, so the last couple of months I've been learning about happiness from the inside, feeling positive and The law of Attraction.  I've had lots of quiet time meditating and walking with my dog Poppy in the beautiful woods around here.  But i need to retrain soon…I want to use this opportunity for a fresh start…

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